2023: Ett år av passion, förändring och gemenskap

Ett år går till historien, och vilket år det varit! 2023 har för mig varit ett år fyllt av äventyr, personlig utveckling, och framför allt, en resa genom mina passioner. Från att omfamna nya möjligheter i min karriär till att utforska världen genom min kamera, har varje ögonblick varit en del av en större resa som formar mig till den jag är.

Att forma och vara en del av ett högpresterande team med fokus på vad som är viktigt, på riktigt! Att byta arbetsplats under 2023 var ett av årets bästa beslut.

Min resa detta år innebar bland annat en betydande förändring i min professionella bana. Jag tog steget att byta arbetsgivare inom IT-sektorn, en sektor som ständigt utmanar och inspirerar mig. Det var ett beslut som inte bara handlade om karriär, utan också om att följa min inre kompass och göra något som verkligen kändes betydelsefullt. Att få möjligheten att arbeta i en organisation där IT är mer än bara teknik och själva affären. En verksamhet där vi skapar verklig skillnad för människor i sina svåraste stunder, är oerhört givande.

Många mil i bil har det blivit under året. En höjdpunkt var familjens bilsemester genom Europa med slutmålet Gardasjön.

Mötet med Simon Sinek för några år sedan, och hans tankar kring "Start With Why", har verkligen burit frukt detta år. Hans ord har inte landat rätt där jag arbetat innan, där har det övergripande målet alltid varit att ge ägarna större vinster.

På det personliga planet har familjen varit min största källa till glädje. Att få vara friska och tillbringa tid tillsammans har varit oersättligt. Våra äventyr, exempelvis bilsemestern till Gardasjön med stopp i Österrike och Tyskland, har fyllt oss med gemenskap och skapat minnen för livet. Det är dessa stunder, stora som små, som ger livet dess rika färg.

Fotografering har fortsatt vara en stor del av mitt liv. 2023 var ett år då jag djupdykte in i sportfotografering, en genre som kräver skicklighet och snabbhet. Från att dokumentera ungdomsidrott till att fånga ögonblicken i en volleylandskamp i Sparbanken Skåne Arena eller följa handbollslandslagets VM i Göteborg och Herning, varje ögonblick har varit en lärdom. Ett stort tack till Johan, Hans och Stefan hos LUGI Handboll som gav mig chansen att utforska detta område ytterligare. Att under en period varit en del av LUGI Handbolls utveckling, att nästan på egen hand lyfta klubben från total mediaskugga till bäst i klassen, har varit en resa i sig. Hoppas de kan fortsätta på den vägen.

Fotografering kommer vara en stor del av mitt 2024, men kanske lite mindre fokus på sport. Fler natursköna vandringar och ett alarm som ringer i god tid före soluppgången.

Detta år har också varit en tid av att fira gemenskapen inom sporten. Att arbeta med spelare och ledare, från representationslag till ungdomslag, har varit en källa till glädje. Att fånga deras energi och entusiasm, lära känna personer som Lovisa, Perla, Adrian, Kasper, Ofelia, Filippa, Mads, Cornelia, Anton, Timo, Axel och alla andra har varit en ära. Att se våra ungdomslag, som Pojkar 14, kämpa och växa på och utanför planen, det har varit en påminnelse om sportens kraft.

Jag har även haft förmånen att vara en del av andra stora sportevenemang. Att få vara en av få utvalda fotografer på Skidspelen i Falun var en upplevelse utöver det vanliga. Att fånga Jonna Sundlings kraft och intensitet var en av många höjdpunkter. Mitt arbete för Svenska Volleybollförbundet och att dokumentera vårt landslags framfart i Golden League var ett annat stolthetsmoment. Damernas VM i handboll avslutade ett härligt sportår!

När jag nu står här vid slutet av 2023 och ser tillbaka, känner jag en djup tacksamhet för alla dessa erfarenheter. Det har varit ett år av att utforska nya horisonter, av att lära och växa både professionellt och personligt. Med 2024 runt hörnet ser jag fram emot att fortsätta denna resa. Mitt fokus kommer att skifta något, från sportfotografering och tillbaka till natur och landskap, resor och vandringar med kameran fastsatt på ryggsäcken. Men oavsett vad det nya året har i sitt sköte, är jag redo att ta emot det med öppna armar.

Tack till alla som varit en del av mitt år. Jag ser fram emot att dela fler berättelser, äventyr och upplevelser med er under 2024.

Ta hand om er därute så bjuder på ett lite axplock från 2023. 📸😊

I shoot with old cameras

Photographing landscapes is a big part of my photography. Although I still like to shoot it with slide film, for example Fujifilm Velvia 50 for its deep colors, I also have a favorite among color negative film for this purpose. It's Kodak Ektar 100, launched in its new version in 2008. Created for nature, outdoors, fashion, and product photography. The film offers ultra-fine grains, ultra-vivid colors, and high saturation and is available in ISO 100 only.

Leica M6 Kodak Ektar 100

There are some benefits of negative film over slides that I really appreciate. There are two things, in particular, I think about. Number one is that today fewer and fewer develop slide film in E6 chemicals if you want to avoid doing it yourself. The second is that a negative film is usually easier to shoot than a positive one. You often have significantly larger exposure margins.

I shoot with old cameras, sometimes without light meters, or they are unreliable. Sometimes I just have to guess my settings. With a slide film, the margins of error are minimal. A little overexposed and I risk eradicating the highlights. A little underexposed and my shadows become completely black without details. However, a rule of thumb is to expose for the highlights when it comes to slide film.

With a negative film, you have a much broader exposure range. I can overexpose my images to ensure good shadows without risking destroying highlights as quickly and with a film like Kodak Ektar, I can get pretty close to a slide film in the feeling when I photograph landscapes.

This is an excellent film to have in your camera when you do not really know what will happen and need to quickly snap the image with a guessed exposure. However, keep in mind that it handles extra nicely when there is a lot of light.

Kodak Portra 160

Canon EOS 30 Kodak Portra 160

Kodak Portra is one of the films I always have at home. It is available as ISO 160, 400 and 800 and I almost always photograph them as 100, 200 and 400. The film replaced Kodak's Vericolor in 1998 but has been upgraded accordingly, as late as 2022.

As with many modern films, Portra was created to work better as a film scanned and processed digitally before printing the images.

This film is excellent for both portraits and landscapes, a perfect film to take with you on vacation. My opinion is that it wants some extra light, spring and summer film in southern Sweden at least. Therefore, it was extra fun to see what it would do with a foggy and cold winter day by the sea.

I think it did pretty well! And after gray and gloomy days comes the sun.

More profound

I have never stopped shooting with analog film. The feeling when you open the developing box and hope that something has happened, that something got stuck on the film, that feeling is fantastic. Every time there is a sense of magic when you hold up the film strip to the light and look at the negatives, that tingling sensation never disappoints you no matter how old you get or how many times you have done it. The brain processes the negatives quickly and you can at this point see if there is potential in some photographs or not. Some pictures may not be as good as you imagined them when you pressed the shutter button. Others are just different, neither better nor worse. Sometimes there are a few diamonds that are much better than you could ever wish for.

Pentax 645 NII - Kosmo Mono 100

Pentax 645 NII - Kosmo Mono 100

For me, the process of developing my film myself has been as important as photographing with an analog camera, seeing the images on the computer screen, or hanging them on a wall. There are three occasions where the feeling of magic is extra tangible. First is the sound of the shutter on most analog cameras when the picture is taken, along with the sound when you advance the film to get ready for your next frame. Then there is the moment I described earlier when looking at the negatives for the first time.

The third opportunity you can experience together with me at the city library throughout October. That is when you experience the picture hung on a wall. For me, it is something completely different than seeing them on a backlit screen, computer or phone. I choose the word experience because it is so much more than just seeing the picture. It is a feeling that is difficult to describe. Of course, it is strongly connected to the subject, but there is also something more, something bigger and more profound. And whatever it is, it is highly individual.

Canon EOS 3 - Ilford FP4+ 125

Canon EOS 3 - Ilford FP4+ 125

This time I have chosen to show fewer pictures than last time and they have a completely different theme and style than on my previous exhibition. Those photos were taken with various analog cameras during the previous 12 months. I have used films from different manufacturers, variants with their different characters, expressions and difficulties. The only thing they have in common is that they are black/white. For me, it removes a layer of potential noise and captures what is depicted in a more naked way. This time, the theme is simply my creative expression and my creative process that I value so much from start to finish. These images are also caught in Lund and its surrounding areas. So they have something in common with my exhibition in February and June, some kind of common thread. That collection was a tiny part of all the beauty in our local area shoot during our pandemic era.

Canon EOS 3 - Bergger Panaro 400

Canon EOS 3 - Bergger Panaro 400

Welcome to my second exhibition at the City Library in Lund throughout October 2021. This time we may be allowed to have numerous exciting conversations about my photos or why not about photography and photographs in general than we were allowed to have in February.

I look forward to those talks almost more than hanging my pictures. At least as much. :)

Fujifilm Provia 100F Cross-Processed

In a previous blog post, I wrote about developing film cross-processed. In short, it means developing a film in the "wrong" chemicals. Today, basically, there are three different ones with a few minor exceptions. We have chemicals to produce black/white film, one for color negative, and a third for positive film, also called slide film.

Botanical Garden, Lund Oct 19th 2020

Botanical Garden, Lund Oct 19th 2020

For color negatives, you use a C41 process, and for a positive film, it is normally E6. When I do a cross-process development, I almost always do it with a slide film that I develop in chemistry for color negatives, C41. When I mentioned this last time, I took the pictures with the Kodak Ektachrome E100 and was not completely happy with the result. I then wrote that I would try Fujifilm Provia 100F instead, based on a feeling that the result would be more as I wanted.

So now, I have developed Provia 100F, so it has become color negatives. I have been using Negative Lab Pro software for some time now to convert negatives. Or actually, I only use it for color negatives. For black/white images, I still let SilverFast 8 do the job. I am pleased with the result NLP gives, but it means a slightly more difficult workflow, so we will see if I think it's worth it when I have used it a little more. SilverFast is extremely smooth and also gives a good result, no doubt about it.

I was delighted with the pictures, and I think I will continue to use Provia 100F for cross-processing but Kodak Ektachrome E100 and Fujifilm Velvia 50 when I develop the pictures in E6.

Provia 100F CP

Provia 100F CP

Ektachrome E100 CP

Ektachrome E100 CP

Provia 100F CP

Provia 100F CP

Ektachrome 100E CP

Ektachrome 100E CP

To choose film

Someone might be wondering where this newfound interest in flowers comes from. There have been many pictures of flowers in recent weeks and several visits to the botanical garden in Lund. But it doesn't really have that much to do with flowers. It's more about testing different analog films and how they render color and tonality. Of course, there is a lot of green in the garden. The same is true when I walk in nature. However, many other colors are also interesting.

If you look in our freezer, you can see a great variety of films. These are brands like Ilford, Kodak, Fujifilm, Rollei, Bergger, and so on. And from some manufacturers several different types. Fujifilm Velvia 50, Provia 100F, 400H or Kodak Ektar 100, Portra 400, TRI-X, and many more. A great mix where everyone renders colors or tones differently.

Kodak Ektachrome E100 Cross Processed in C41

Kodak Ektachrome E100 Cross Processed in C41

But it's not just the film that varies. So do the chemicals for development. Some developers fit a specific film more or less right. Sometimes you choose developers depending on whether you want more or less grain, more or less sharpness, more or less blackness, and so on.

So the combination of all the different variants explodes. If you also add cross-processing to the picture, when you develop slide film with developing liquids for ordinary color negatives, it becomes unsustainable.

When it comes to cross-processing that you can do in both directions, slide film in C41, and color negative in E6, different films give very different results. So it's about finding what you like but at the same time making it easy for yourself. In the end, it is the image that matters most.

So in recent weeks, I have tested several different films to find a handful that I will use primarily. There are a few left to try in terms of cross processing. For example, I'm not so fond of the green tint that Kodak Ektachrome E100 gave, so I think I instead will go for Fujifilm Provia 100F. On the other hand, I like Kodak when I develop it in the right chemistry, E6.

Canon EOS 30, Fujifilm 400H Color Negative

Canon EOS 30, Fujifilm 400H Color Negative

To complicate matters further, I do not choose the same film for medium format 120-film as I do when it comes to 35mm film.

When it comes to developing chemistry, there is an infinite number of variants for black/white film, not quite as many for color negatives and slides. I have tried a variety and also a single bath variant from Cinestill, Monobath D96. Also, their C41 for the color film which consists of two baths. But I'm not entirely happy with any of them.

So right now, it looks like I will primarily use the Ilford HP5 + 400 as a black/white 35mm film but the Ilford Delta 3200 when it comes to 120-film. Color negatives will be Kodak Ektar 100 and Portra 400. And as a slide film, I think it will be Fujifilm 100F.

Canon EOS 3, Kodak Ektar 100

Canon EOS 3, Kodak Ektar 100

In my Pentax 645n II medium format camera, I will also use the Fujifilm Velvia 50 for landscape photos. You simply can not resist it!

Nikon F5, Kodak Tmax P3200

Nikon F5, Kodak Tmax P3200

Canon EOS 3, Kodak Ektachrome E100 CP

Canon EOS 3, Kodak Ektachrome E100 CP

Canon EOS 30, Kodak Portra 800

Canon EOS 30, Kodak Portra 800

Canon EOS 30, Kodak Ektachrome E100

Canon EOS 30, Kodak Ektachrome E100

Running out of film

The other day, Exor and I made a trip to Botanical Garden in Lund. With me, I had my EOS 30 with EF 50mm f/1.2 on, charged with Kodak Ektar 100 film. Photographing flowers is not something I do very often but wow, what fantastic shapes and colors.

Canon EOS 30 and Kodak Ektar

Canon EOS 30 and Kodak Ektar

In the last month, I have started photographing more and more analog again. I have used my small pocket cameras, my larger SLR, and my Mamiya rz67 120mm medium format giant.

The film stock in the freezer has started to decrease to the point that I have had to refill with more 35mm film. 120mm has also decreased a bit, but there is still a fair amount left. I have had many different types of film in my freezer before, but now I will focus on a smaller number of brands and variants.
On the 35mm side, I will rely on the Kodak Ektar 100 and Portra 800, which both are color negative. Also, I will use Kodak Ektachrome, which is a beautiful slide film. As a black and white film, it will be the, perhaps, a little boring, Ilford HP5+.

Mamiya rz67 Pro II and Kodak Ektar

Mamiya rz67 Pro II and Kodak Ektar

At 120mm, the focus will be on the Fujifilm Velvia 50 slide film for landscape, and for color negative, I will use the Fujifilm 400H. Here I will run Fujifilm for black/white also, Acros 100.

Of course, there are many reasons to shoot with film. Maybe not as many as reasons why to photograph at all, but close enough. In addition to the emotional, the creative side, it is also a technical part, and that should be as easy and straightforward as possible.

When shooting with film, of course, you need to develop it and then either scan it or make paper copies with an enlarger. The actual development of film looks a little different depending on whether it is black/white film, color negative, or slide film you are working with. Developing black/white is the easiest, and there it has become even more convenient with Cinestills Monobath. Also, C41, the process for developing color negatives, Cinestill has significantly simplified it with its two-step solution. Then you have slide film that is a little more difficult, and there I use Tental's E6 development, which consists of 4 steps and a 2.5-minute rinsing between each step. So that takes time, and you need to agitate every 15-30 seconds so you can't do anything else during development.

Canon EOS 30 and Fujjifilm 400H

Canon EOS 30 and Fujjifilm 400H

For my part, I urge everyone to give it a try. You can always send your film to a lab and have it both developed and digitized. There are also lots of cheap cameras you can use. The results are still in the compositions and capturing the feeling of the moment.

Canon EOS 30 and Fujifilm 400H

Canon EOS 30 and Fujifilm 400H

Mini-vacation

Gone on little mini-vacation when autumn rolls in and trying to push away the last of summer. It is still quite lovely temperatures around 20 degrees celsius—windy and rainy and in between some sun, and at the moments when the sun manages to get through the cloud cover, it is still nice and warm.

Råå Vallar, September 4th 2020

Råå Vallar, September 4th 2020

This weekend we have taken the motorhome to Råå Vallar and got a place right down by the sea. From the motorhome, we can see some of the ocean beyond the wall, which is a perfect place to take shorter walks upon. The wind protection it provides is appreciated in the end, even if the view is not what it could have been.

It did not look promising for a beautiful sunset Friday night, but we got at least a fantastic cloud show with lovely colors that ended the evening before the night took over together with some rain. So we ended this day inside our mobile house with wine, snacks and Yatzy of course while the rain was hitting the roof, only to make it even cozier.

I still shoot film

A few weeks ago, I developed my first film in a very long time. In the fridge, I had several exposed rolls. The oldest was from a year ago. It was both black/white and color negative and some slides. So yesterday I took the time to develop them all. Ilford HP5+, Kodak Tmax 3200, and Rollei CR200 in 135 formats and a roll of 120mm Fujifilm Provia 100f.

Mamiya RZ67 Pro II, Fujifilm Provia 100f

Mamiya RZ67 Pro II, Fujifilm Provia 100f

I like Provia 100f, it is not as saturated as Velvia and works in many situations. Also, as a portrait film, if you want. Here I was out at sunset and took some pictures by the water. I recently published photos from this tour that I took with my digital camera. I took this picture with the Mamiya RZ67 II Pro, a medium format camera. Personally, I think that slide films should be photographed in larger formats than 35mm, and 120mm is the largest I have. Love the colors! Too bad that it is so expensive, otherwise I would have used this film much more often. Today, a roll of film where I can photograph 10 pictures costs around 120 SEK, excluding shipping and developing, if I buy it in Sweden. Now I usually buy my film on eBay, and then I can find it for around 100 SEK incl. shipping.

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Rollei CR200 is also a color reversal film, here photographed in a 35mm format. I actually do not remember in which camera I had this, but I would guess I shot this on the Nikon F5. I often shoot slide films in cameras with good light measurement when I can not measure manually external, so I think the choice fell on the F5. I'm not as fond of the colors that the CR200 gives, the slightly green/yellow muted tone. I bought it to try it out, but it is not a film I will buy more of. I simply don't like the result.

Kodak Tmax 3200

Kodak Tmax 3200

Photographing in black and white is very rewarding. This was my first attempt with the Kodak Tmax 3200, and I will use it several times, especially when I want to shoot in low light but can also imagine some action images. The dog or children at full speed. The second film, Ilford HP5 +, is a film I often use, probably the one I photographed the most with and I really like it. It is, as we say in Sweden, "lagom". Does not protrude in any direction and can be pressed both up and down during photography as well as during development.

Ilford HP5+

Ilford HP5+

Now I inventoried the film stock that I have in the freezer and loaded some cameras so there will be more analog images coming soon.